​CloudBurst (Hey Now)

Moon High
A great thunder crack
and dire rain burst
is rushing to earth
missed by half baked scientists
man the tool maker
manic technologists, bankers
and the innocent life we destroyed
hey now
a final torrent of natural that's-it from above 
place your ear to the sky listen
as the Indian tracked the railroad
with attention to iron tracks
hear the drops of acid rain
the thunder of extinct
the no turning back
force of destruction
we weren't alone
we had responsibility 
to Biota
but treated earth like a toilet
Cloudburst (Hey Now)

Summer Fruit

Textures and similes abound as we select summer fruit,
sniffing the aromas of the produce aisle as eagerly as spaniels,
squeezing the juicy red heft of tomato, solid and round,
velvety apricots, lemons like handfuls of sunshine,
and the pocked red hearts of strawberries.

Fruit shades seem truer than paint samples
and crayon colors, and harder to reproduce:
The red and green mottled skin of an apple,
pale, mealy crescents of banana.
their leathery skins like speckled snakes.

Downy green kiwis are stippled with seeds like blackheads.
the sweet golden moons of peaches and the sunset orbs
of nectarines mingle in the blue bowl, waiting to be consumed.
The sweetness of their scent is heady and rich, syrupy juice
dripping summery stickiness.

Oranges resemble miniature suns,
bright paper lanterns strung for a garden party.
Bruise-colored plums, bitten and bleeding,
fruit peels like citrus-scented leather, the crunch of grapeskins,
and spongy bowls of grapefruit halves with hearts of rosy pulp.

The great boulder of watermelon awaits its execution.
Its green beetle-shell is striped like malachite. Cleaved open,
it will reveal its damp center like a geode, studded darkly with seeds,
to be devoured by tongues streaked violet with blueberries,
their fingers bloodstained with berry juice, freshly-picked.




Potatoes

Potatoes tumble from burlap sacks,
heaped like speckled stones, laying
damp and cool in my hand, their heft
weighed in the paleness of my palm.

Ancient skin is scratched and scarred,
punctuated with moles and liver spots.
The peeler scrapes away the epidermis
of coarse brown paper, revealing gold,

like ore damply shaken from a miner’s pan.
The glint of wielded steel, deftly separating
the toadlike complexion from the prize within.
The brown rind peels away like curling ribbon,

exposing yellow flesh punctured by thumbprints.
The wet-grass scent of freshly-shaven potatoes
bobbing in a bowl like a children’s game, watery
submersibles left to float, like seals in a rookery.

The piled parings resemble rhinoceros hides:
The satisfaction of mounding vegetable peels
heaped like pine straw, the pile of potato skin
strewn like gift wrap on Christmas morning.

The methodical scrape of the peeler as it shreds
the brown tree-bark roughness like scaling fish.
Metaphors abound, similes curling into the air
above as the potatoes slowly fill the empty bowl.



Bitter Tea

The tea was bitter with betrayal.
Their knowing eyes met across the table,
among the sugar tongs and strawberries.
Blackflies lingered over the sugar cubes,
waved away by impatient hands.

The spoons rang against the teacups with
a chime like church bells. The ice clatters,
catching light like glaciers in a sepia sea,
melting fast under the steady eye of the sun.
The rising steam unfurls to meet the sky,

evaporating like a jet’s contrail overhead,
its warm scent drifting against perfumes.
Smiling over sandwiches, his wife stirs angrily,
Her jaw strained taut with furious hostility.
The teasing frisson of electricity leapt

between their mingled fingertips. Concealed
beneath the tablecloth, She tickled his ankles
with her painted toes, her sandals abandoned
in the grass. A cool green afternoon awash with
light, drifting tendrils of windblown hair and

laughter like wind chimes, bone china gleaming
against her vermillion fingertips. The strawberries
bleed against the porcelain. The world is green and
expectant. The leaves shiver in the breeze, throwing
shadows on stippled bark. The fresh-peach scent of

the bower sweet as the summer nectar of sweat-damp
sheets, a strand of hair stark against the pristine pillow.
Her legs are crossed decorously beneath the whiteness
of the napkin stained with the blown kiss of Her lipstick.
The sunlight illuminates her shape through the voile

of Her summer dress like stained glass, lit from within.
He lingers in the curve of Her neck, kissing its white
softness and murmuring in Her ear. They whisper into
the wind, stealing secret moments of breathless
conversation, fingerpainting their linked initials on the

sweating glasses and smearing them clean. The civility
of convention, the pouring of the steaming pot, leaves
unfurling. The crystal click of ice cubes clattering in
the topaz tea, sugar swirling like sand, the sharpness
of citrus filling the air. The long spoons catch the light,

winking at their duplicity. His wife worries the teabag with
a spoon, watching the water darken. The broken shards
of their relationship cannot be repaired with decorum
and cups of tea, pallid weapons against the calculating
sensuality of Her smile, as ripe and overt as summer fruit.



Fallen Apples

Ripe fruit dangles overhead like ornaments
tucked amidst shining leaves, greenly-scented,
dappling the lawn like an underwater sun.

Stumbling over the sharp stones of fallen apples
strewn among the tousled carpet of grass,
stems bitter with sap snapping under the weight

of their solid green heft, rustic baskets filling
with plops and thuds, and the mingled shades
of green: the green boulders of fallen apples

nestled in the roughness of damp grass;
lawn and leaves and piled fruit, crisply bitter
and running juice, bittersweet and glowing green.

Bossy

Bossy as a limp.
He's a cover hog.
I'm cold over here
but he seems warm.
He's made me believe
I like it in Alaska.
He blows on things
to cool them.
He blows on things
to heat them.
The purse
of his lips
is always the same.
Sirens and pox
coming over the bridge
but his breeze carries
infection far away.
He wrote me a poison
haiku. 19 syllables
of cyanide. About
v-less geese. The
importance of the flock.
The need for a leader.
He led me south.
I marched to
his soothing rhythm.



WarHorse

It took 1000 men
to kill the last destrier.
They died under its hooves.
The horse had flanks like walls
and sincere murderous teeth.
It had been unsaddled
when the army was triumphant.
It was rendered obsolete by victory
and considered malignant.

The deaths might have been incidental--
water off a spiraling dog--but its
wide muddy eyes gave events
the look of calm intention: a coincidence
of wind and leaves.

And a continent away
its rider: rheumy eyed
and with a slack mustache.
He'd sat proud and tall
aboard his mount--
fashioned for
riding and fighting.
Good only for war.

He wants to say momentous things:
He's seen men falling from the sky
as though they'd cut the branches
from beneath themselves, the long
thorns impaling them as
they struck the dirt.
There had been a stone angel:
a concrete shepherdess
who arranged ambushes.

He's witnessed what lurks just
beside the normal electricity of
living and knows that's the secret
for cursing one another.
He's palpated the shape just outside
people's skins where seizures
and cancers and suicides seep in.

He tries to write but his hand is
too damp and tremulous to hold a pen.

The people thank him for his service
and bow as though to someone wise.
He longs only for his horse.



the luxury of sadness

my stoic wife is weeping about our dead calico.
mauled by the neighbor dog it dragged itself
up the steps onto the porch. I replay
the scenario from the perspective of the cat.
that's how I make myself sad.
I ask how old was she? nine amanda says.
we found her when I was pregnant with Lu.

(amanda was crouched
as though holding a basket

enticing something
from beneath the shed

wriggling
her fingers
and speaking
sweetly)

I go back to my old superstitions
and wonder about cause and effect
as it relates to bubka the calico cat:
she almost hung herself dead in
a closet and was saved by
by the length of her dew claw--
that was in the room that's now lu's.

I think of curses
and then reject them.
stories of orphans.
blunt stupid demons.

there's hope for the
coincidence of proximity
followed by an impulse to
name the most inconsequential
and least travelled bridge.

she was found near the garden
I explain uselessly to lucia

as heart shaped
tomatoes tumbled from
vine to palm.



Adopted

The world will belong
to the adopted.
Everything there
a product of revelation.

Not the false
piety of the admonished
or the inert arrogance
of the firstborn but the
fish instructed in swimming
or the bird taught late to fly.
Domesticated and returned
to the wilderness.
A link between dog and wolf.
Suckled in the forest and in the town.

Their domicile a house
of fur and feathers.
A porch for orphans and widows.
The adopted rule the world
from the third floor
of that home sitting
in a crow's nest not
concerned with finding land.

Because there everything is the sea.
Land is a dream people have.
People with one mother
no knowledge of the waves
and what it is to be
above the salt
and just beneath the sky.



Love letter: epidemic
​
he went back for his sister.
he'd thought to leave her but
could not.

she rocked in her chair.
she put her hand
to her mouth and cawed like a
crow.

he thought he finally
understood her.
the caw wasn't a call for help
or a laugh or a comment.
it was the sound of the
last person on earth enjoying
the vibration of her voice
against her hand.

he said 'you're not alone.
I'm here with you.
let's go to school.'

even though there'd be no
school.
there were no more teachers
and there were no more students.
but it was one of the words
that got her to move.

'take my hand,
walk with me out the door.'
'caw' she said.
or didn't say but
placed into her cupped palm.

caw.

where are all the birds he
thought.
the cawing birds dusting the
ground clean with their wings.
'caw' he said
​and she arose.

Afterlife

At first you could not imagine how
I waited in the shadows.

The sky is blank,
Flesh of no feeling

The sun glowing, spectral,
Rising with the smoke.

A door swings open.
The heavenly music surprises me.

Without invitation, I enter.

Under starry skies, in prairies of
Knee-high corn, I dreamed awake.



Poppies

The poppies smoulder,
Lit matches struck in the dark

Where we brought my sister’s ashes
When her life wicked out.

Each red flower
Is black at the heart

Of every burning
Wide bloody mouth.

Sunlight shines through,
Translucent.

Excitement quivers.
It is Winter here.

Frost waits nearby,
Sharpening his scissors.



Fresh Rain

Fresh rain fell
Onto velvet skin

Beneath an open sky.
I seek shelter in you.

Every stranger
Becomes a ghost passing by.

I harvest the fog,
Bathe naked in the waxing moon.

Sometimes I think I hear
The echo of the storm.



Daydreaming

Thoughts come easily
At dusk when beekeeper’s ghosts
Move through the empty orchard.

That moment before sleep,
Black nor white but
Something in between

Casts it’s spell.
The river of dripping saltwater pearls,
The withered moor,

The ashen lake
Where nothing stirs or alarms,
Where no birds sing.



Night

They came out to
Watch the moon,
A chalky paleness in the sky,
Wet from an evening’s
Snow, gathering shadows
In a field and hoarding them.
Darkness waited
Dimly in the trees,
As a mother
Slowly, slowly
Withdrawing a child
From her breast,
Falling snow
Pale as milk,
The elusive shapes
Of twilight merging,
Haunting, full of
Regret, a cry,
And then silence.
Night swallows all.



Birds at the Burial

Near the riverbank where we
Buried her, I light a candle

And wait, patient as a hunter
Detecting what the beast will do

In the next moment.
Someone, somewhere, will see it.

Barn owls celebrate
Over their cathedral of bones,

Screaming skies clawed with crows.
The man asleep on his lumpy mattress

Has a head full of ghosts and
Sad, erotic dreams.

Gulls rise, small white banshees
Worshipping the sun.

​Anxieties and Nights
 
It is the vapor of something, I don't know
a nebulous longing in the guise of an ache, 
that rises to fill me up with your diamond eyes.
Anxieties have wings; existence is a drag.
 
The air is a constant lack, I breathe.  Bones chime,
 and fill the vacuous spaces inside my body;
the interference pattern of death and boners.
 
Sometimes, I want to buy me a lying drug,
telling me that I am living a Bollywood movie.
 It sucks, but it won't go forever.
 
Do I want to be comfortably fooled? Or do I want
to be naked down to my last molecule ?
 
I am not made in schools, books or churches. And
I am not going to drag the corpse of last few thousand years,  
like I am told to. One of these days, I just want to 
be a duck or a stupid pig. What are you going to do about it?
 
"Form is emptiness. Emptiness is form. "… Diamond Sutra 
"Form is background. Background is form"….M.C. Escher's Sutra
"Wave is particle. Particle is wave"…Heisenberg's Sutra
"Matter is mind. Mind is matter"….Jung's Sutra
"Nevermind"…..Cobain's Sutra
 
I am going to have a slice of sky for the breakfast today,
 to celebrate the oneness of sublime and junk. And of course,
 you are not invited, because you and me are always one.

Help Wanted: Political Position Open
 
Right now,
quotas on
mud-and-hog
type demagogues
who are jellyfish-witless
were filled
quite some time ago.
Applicants that can’t
accept earth-besmirching
rants ​are welcomed. 

 


Veritas Vanished
 
Aphorists say that
 
The truth is old--
Bristlecone-pine-tree-old,
 
And the truth is cold--
Cadaver-in-the-arctic-cold.
 
Granted, the truth is a lot of things,
But it’s the thing
That’s not being told.
 
I believe
The truth is a stranger
That’s about as foreign as an extraterrestrial.
It will never land on the lips of politicians.
 
That’s the truth.
 
by Bob McNeil
Copyright 2016

Death of Biota

In 1872 Biota and Engine
hatch carbon Black_swan
from a metallic dirtyshell
offering gifts of production
and horsepower to humankind 
by 2016
we stew in hot truth
as denial melts
degrees/megastorms/drought/flood
records breaking like cheap toys
as Arctic poles shrink
stats fib
Biota fell ill
and is dying
conjure death
as we suffer and join Biota



money eyes (back to root)

expressing
a simple damp sadness
that exchange ruined man
the black pig of deathblow chews
as flourishing we
ramp it up
till we're done
back to root
with blind money eyes



Gone

almost in two
when you flew 
my heart wracked
then cracked

​For Your Wedding Pinterest
 
Like a boozy bridesmaid wearing wine-soaked white   I’m
Drunk
in front of that wedding planner’s office near my Harlem apartment
 
My Manhattan mem(or man)ories during my crisis of a quarterlife are a quarter nice
And 75% libido in limbo
 
Heart v. penis
An inner-world war being waged by humans since before the birth of God
 
One time I brought some marriage-ready friends to Kleinfeld
The shiniest gownhouse in all of New York City
And I left the building too at peace to set off my arsenal of sexist jokes
So maybe heart wins